I'm thinking that maybe I should pick this back up. Fast food is my weakness because it allows me to be lazy when it comes to meal planning and grocery shopping, you know, typical adult things. I don't have to make a lunch when I go to work, I can just use my break to buy something that is hot (usually) and quick (most times). But it isn't practical. And it is constantly getting more and more expensive, and likely more and more unhealthy as various gmo products and chemicals are used in production. I'm literally feeling the effects of eating so much fast food in my diet. The difficult part isn't making up in my mind that I'm never going to eat it again...considering I do that like 12 times a day. The hard part is living in a world where everyone else is eating it all the time and seemingly not having any negative consequence from that lifestyle. The hardest part is feeling like a complete outsider that can't participate in the most basic of human gatherings of eating meals together because I've chosen not to eat what the majority eats. Well, at least the majority of the people in my surroundings. But, I just know deep down that I have to stop. Every day it's nagging me to change my life completely. I've done it for a year but is it even fathomable to cut it out completely. I'm not really one of those "moderation" girls, because for me, one bite is a slippery slope all the way back to the pits that I'm eternally climbing my way out of..and every time I fall it's just another reason for people to shake their heads and say how dumb it was for me to even try. As if in any world that could even possibly be helpful. Maybe forever is too much to think about. Maybe I should start with 90 days. And when should I start this? When else? Tomorrow.
Wish me luck.
-F
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