I haven't been perfect

But today will be a good day. I will make good decisions about what I eat today. And everyday I will trust myself to do what is best in that moment. And I will trust that these good decisions will reward me with a happier healthier life.

It's funny...

..well, more sad than funny. Just when you think you are strong enough to have a cheat meal, that slippery slope just continues until you decide to order the box pizza deal at pizza hut and spend half the night nauseous and with stomach cramps with an acidic burn crawling up your throat. Welp. Hopefully I've learned my lesson this time. Tough learner I suppose.

Early morning updates

August has been going very well. Maybe having less stress about eating actually makes it easier to eat healthy. I think the arbitrary blanket statement of "eat clean" was making me evaluate every single thing I ate at the moment of the decision at each meal. Instead, having general guidelines takes some of the options off the table so I don't have to think about is so much. I feel good but hopefully I keep the momentum going.

Also, what may help is exercising. I started taking some early morning yoga classes before work and most times I'd rather go home and take a nap over trying to go somewhere and eat out. I think I'll start taking spin classes too and just blast the fat right off lol. I think that will be good. Some of my clothes feel a tad bit different but I'm not sure if that is in my head. I don't think that I look any differently though so. I'll just keep it up and see how things unfold.

Honestly though, I just can't wait to feel lighter. It sounds crazy but a few months ago I just started to feel heavy. And by that I mean that I started to feel the effects of having extra body weight. Being winded after climbing stairs, more difficulty getting out of the car, just all the extra work that it takes to do a simple task. And I'm not even super huge. But I want that to be gone. I want to be more agile and have more strength so I don't randomly start sweating from tasks that come easily to most. So, that's what I'm working for. I'm hoping that I'll be able to feel the difference and see the results of my efforts by October, or by my birthday for sure.

Yes!

Today was great. I ate well. I bought more good groceries. Let's make it happen.

Take 2

I didn't want to start over but maybe that will be better. It's the first of the month and just over three months until my birthday. Since the goal was a 90 day challenge. I don't know if my nonefforts over the past few days have really set me back. I originally got the idea of a 90 day challenge because that's the first quarter of Extreme Weightloss. The goal is to take a year to change your life. But in that first 90 days the people on the show really start the mental transformation and they realize that they are the only one preventing them from being  who they really want to become. Not to mention they drop like 80, 90, 130 lbs! Well, granted they started out at 300+ and even 400+ pounds, but still that's freakin' amazing! I don't know how many pounds I need to lose because I left my scale in the move, but I'm sure I need to lose at least 50lbs if I'm being honest. So, I could definitely use 90 day turnaround. If I could even lose 40 that would be great. And I don't think that's too far fetched that is about 3 lbs a week. And when you're overweight the first bit of weight loss comes the easiest....If you just stick to it. I wish there was some prize I could get for meeting a certain goal like on the show. But, seeing as how I'm trying to build a savings, I'm sure that wouldn't be wise for me to splurge so early on..

...Hmm...

Maybe I just need a plan. Maybe that's the reason I was so successful I specifically described what counted as fast food and was specifically off limits. I don't want to be 100% paleo. I've done it for 30 days and it's not bad but I don't want to feel like I'm dieting. I really do want to come to something that I can make a lifestyle...thingy.

So, to start...I think I need to give up fast food for the rest of the year. Five months is a lot, but the only time it will be a problem is on roadtrips. But I think it will help me not to overeat snacks on the trips as well. Which brings me to the next point.

No chips. I just love the kettle cooked salt and vinegar chips. Which are bad on all fronts, fried potatoes with loads of sodium and vinegar eating your insides out....but oh so delicious. Til the end of the year, no more of that.

Any and all "junk" food must be either from the natural food section or made at home. And they can be eaten no more than twice a week. And not two whole days just two instances.

Okay I have been trying to write this post for hours now. What else do I need?

Eating out....I can eat out at a restaurant no more than once a week. (For me that is very little) I still have to try to order something that is healthy and drink water.

Limit pizza to no more than once a month.

Overall, I will try to stick mostly to paleo and making my my own meals...And no more cereal. I love it too much and can not stick to a single serving.

I think that should do it. Wish me luck.