The Worst Thing Ever...

I think I need to go on a diet. I honestly don't know when the last time was that I went on a diet. I HATE the concept of diets. Stress yourself out by choosing to limit your own freedom and feeling guilty if you accidentally (or intentionally) fall off the wagon or just don't hit your goal weight after all that frustration. So it sounds dumb that I would even be considering it. But I really want to lose 30 lbs. I when I work out nothing really happens...maybe like 5lbs after forever. And last summer I worked out 4-5 days/week and gained 10 lbs. I'm not interested in gaining anything. Even if it is muscle. I want to lose weight then worry about building muscles...So maybe what I need is more control over what I eat. Not eating fast food is easy when I can eat anything else under the sun including things that are way more fattening like Mexican food, Seafood (with all the buttery drippings), plus fried foods and desserts...all which I love. Maybe it's time to say no to all things unhealthy for a month...or until school starts. Maybe the combination of working out and eating better will do wonders for me. I guess it shouldn't be hard since I have no car and no way to get food since all the people I hang out with work or have class most of the time. If I do start it will probably be tomorrow (of course) so I can get a last day in of eating whatever I want.