Confessions of a Fat Girl

So yeah...I'm getting huge. Almost the size of a house now. It's so frustrating that I am gaining. I don't know how I could eat healthier since my fridge still freezes my lettuce that I buy to make salads which is disgusting when it thaws...and also I haven't been to the gym in exactly 1 month yesterday. I am paying for a friggin gym membership and I have time to go I just don't have a way to get there which irritates me just to think about. And I have tried to go to the gym on campus to walk/run on the indoor track but of course that is the building they decide to lock like somebody is going to steal a bleacher that has been built into the building. I know that this sounds like just a load of excuses-it sounds like that to me as well but I dont know how I can fix it...and I'm terrified to do crunches and exercise in the building that they have me living in currently has the occasional roach ("waterbug") problems...I barely want to walk in there much less lie on the floor. So I am gaining weight cause this campus is so small and I don't get that many steps in per day and on top of that it is hot as -um well idk but it is too friggin hot to be walking around for long periods of time after 9 am on any given day...This is not gonna work for me. This car needs to come with a quickness.